131.

That's my weight. 131 lbs. A few days ago, I made a promise to myself. I promised that I would be 103 by the end of 2012. That's my New Year's Revulation. 103 lbs.

In other news, I'm in a huge fight with my former (as of yesterday) "best friend" Chelsea. I got mad at her on Tuesday, because she treats me awfully. So I kind of stopped talking to her. I've been lonely, but on the up side,  no one has noticed that I'm not eating. Or no one has said anything. Then, yesterday, she approced me in gym class, demanding that I apologize to her. But why should I apologize for saying what I think? So what if I told her that with friends like her, I don't even need enemies? She badgered me through gym and chorus, demanding reasons and examples. But my reasons aren't good enough for her, I guess. She bugged me, and my other "best friend" Jess said that we should make up and be "friends" agian. I blew up at both of them, and they both suck as human beings. Besides, I work best by myself.

At least, I think so.

Ok, I'm A Fat Pig With No Blog Reads So Far

But you're still stuck with me, sorry. Anyways, I'm at 130 (ugh), and I probably just gained a pound today. I didn't even bother counting my calories, because I eat soo much. I eat a yougurt, a ham sandwhich, Oreos, a Hershey bar, a ham steak, and mashed potatoes. But my mom was with me all day, so there's no way I could skip any of them. So now I have to get to wrok. After I'm done with this blog, I'm going to practice for one hour, and eat next to nothing tomorrow. I can blame it on stage fright, because I have a chours concert for my school tomorrow. Along with dancing and chorus, I'm in band, jazz band, and my schools tutoring program (I get to tutor little kids about math. Joy to the freaking world). I'll update soon. Bye!

Thin is what I will be

Hello person reading this blog! I'm Lani, and I'm going to be thin. I'll do whatever it takes. I'm already on a pro ana diet, and making my red braclet. I'm cutting down on my calories, and going to exercise more. I'm starting this all today,which is why I started this blog. To be thin, and to have a place to talk about it. I'm trying to keep my mind on not eating. I'm just sick of being Lani, the invisable fat girl that no one gives a shit about. Plus, thin is in. I want to be a professinal dancer, and no one's going to hire a fat dancer. Being Ana in exchange for being noticed makes you attention seeking, but what does being Ana in exchange for all of your dreams coming true make you? I'm not sure what I'm doing with this, where it's going to get me, but I'm already counting calories (Todays intake:775. I'm such a fat cow). So that's all for now, goodbye.

Thin Is Beatuy,

Lani